the constant heavily filled feeling of nothingness inside of me, that eats my soul and energy. feelings that are impossible to put into words and emotions that scratch every inch of my insides. the demons that follow me daily. the journey of finding and accepting myself. the rare sides of me. freedom. things that have been said and things that should have been said. the angst against growing up. the feeling of not being enough and never living up to other peoples ideals.